Bible, blessings, challenge

Stepping Through the Doubt

Inner peace … nirvana … letting go … These are all terms we all hear every day.  It’s a constant uphill battle to achieve them, and many of us chase after it only to come up empty handed.

My husband and I had a conversation the other day that struck me funny. He said he met someone at one of his work events, who was from Europe. She recently moved here, to Oklahoma, to be near her boyfriend.  By chance, he asked her what her perception of America or being an American was.

She said, “We (those in her country) all think people in America seem fake. Because everyone portrays this happy lifestyle or image.  And no one can be that happy.”

It got me thinking…

I know Hollywood probably has a lot to do with her image of what America is like, but my spin on it was a bit different.  Everyday, I see people and a lot of my friends, who have peace in their heart, and even amidst tragedy – have the most positive outlooks.

Take my friend, Susan, for example.  She was told just over a year ago to go get her affairs in order, as she was recently diagnosed with cancer and wasn’t given much time to live.  Her response was this … ‘I know I serve a loving God.  If this is His will, I will get my affairs in order but I’m choosing to believe He’s going to heal me and I’m going to fight as is His hand is on me’.

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Today, she is NED – ‘no evidence of disease’ from a cancer, which was at stage 4, and was a rare aggressive form.  It’s a cancer, which is predicted to return and it has a 100% mortality rate — but she has peace and is living each day with true happiness.

Maybe a lot of us have more peace in our lives, because as a Christian nation – there are still enough believers left (I choose to believe there are more of us than the media or the news would like us to believe) in the world to have that inner peace.  It may be a struggle to keep it, as God never promises an easy life.  Bad things happen – but He promises to be with us and give us what we need.  It’s the peace that passes understanding that we often hear about.

Today, my friend Terri posted on being happier and how faith has helped her let go and fill in the gaps of life, which were filled with doubt.  It reminded me of my pledge over the last two years of stepping through the doubt in my life.

During Lent for two years in a row, I’ve given up doubt.  You can read about the first time I did it – here.  It sounds crazy and unfathomable, but it’s possible.  The key is when doubt starts plaguing you – mentally give it up.  Tell God its pursuing you and give it to him.  Let go of it and choose not to fall victim to it.  It’s hard to do!  It takes baby steps along the way… so start with the little nagging doubts and then move up to the big ones.  You can let go and choose faith.  The result has been life changing – as along the way – I’ve learned a new habit.  It’s almost second nature.  I say – almost as I fall victim to it and have to remind myself not to doubt.

So now, it’s not just during Lent – it’s a daily process.  When doubt or spiritual warfare start crashing in around my spirit – I choose to turn my back on it and focus on the blessings God has in store for me instead.  It’s led to me taking some giant leaps of faith, which I normally wouldn’t have made, and taken me places I never imagined.  I’ll save that for another blog post.

Whats the point of this post you ask?  I encourage you – no – I challenge you to step through the doubt in your life.  Give it up and take a risk with your faith … and just wait to see what God will do.


On a side note – I just saw a post of mine from 2007 that also relates to this.  Go read this!


4 thoughts on “Stepping Through the Doubt”

  1. Honestly, I never believed it was really possible – at least for me – to turn my back on doubt or let things go. Now I’m beginning to understand it a little bit and I’m sort of looking forward to continuing to put it into practice.

    Of course, you’ve always inspired me to keep trying, so I thank you for being such a positive influence!

    1. You’ve done the same thing for me. I know you can do it! Beware, you will find tougher days as spiritual warfare kicks in … but they’re stumbling blocks you can kick out of your way. Keep giving it up and moving forward…stepping through the doubt.

  2. Love this, Kimberly. And, I applaud you for having the courage to speak your truth, especially in today’s society with a media that discourages such things. God Bless you.

    1. Thanks Lori. I really appreciate you stopping by my blog and leaving such a kind comment. As believers, it’s hard to stand upright in today’s world … but I imagine it always has been for every generation. If it were easy – anyone would do it. 🙂

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