Stepping Through the Doubt

Inner peace … nirvana … letting go … These are all terms we all hear every day.  It’s a constant uphill battle to achieve them, and many of us chase after it only to come up empty handed.

My husband and I had a conversation the other day that struck me funny. He said he met someone at one of his work events, who was from Europe. She recently moved here, to Oklahoma, to be near her boyfriend.  By chance, he asked her what her perception of America or being an American was.

She said, “We (those in her country) all think people in America seem fake. Because everyone portrays this happy lifestyle or image.  And no one can be that happy.”

It got me thinking…

I know Hollywood probably has a lot to do with her image of what America is like, but my spin on it was a bit different.  Everyday, I see people and a lot of my friends, who have peace in their heart, and even amidst tragedy – have the most positive outlooks.

Take my friend, Susan, for example.  She was told just over a year ago to go get her affairs in order, as she was recently diagnosed with cancer and wasn’t given much time to live.  Her response was this … ‘I know I serve a loving God.  If this is His will, I will get my affairs in order but I’m choosing to believe He’s going to heal me and I’m going to fight as is His hand is on me’.

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Today, she is NED – ‘no evidence of disease’ from a cancer, which was at stage 4, and was a rare aggressive form.  It’s a cancer, which is predicted to return and it has a 100% mortality rate — but she has peace and is living each day with true happiness.

Maybe a lot of us have more peace in our lives, because as a Christian nation – there are still enough believers left (I choose to believe there are more of us than the media or the news would like us to believe) in the world to have that inner peace.  It may be a struggle to keep it, as God never promises an easy life.  Bad things happen – but He promises to be with us and give us what we need.  It’s the peace that passes understanding that we often hear about.

Today, my friend Terri posted on being happier and how faith has helped her let go and fill in the gaps of life, which were filled with doubt.  It reminded me of my pledge over the last two years of stepping through the doubt in my life.

During Lent for two years in a row, I’ve given up doubt.  You can read about the first time I did it – here.  It sounds crazy and unfathomable, but it’s possible.  The key is when doubt starts plaguing you – mentally give it up.  Tell God its pursuing you and give it to him.  Let go of it and choose not to fall victim to it.  It’s hard to do!  It takes baby steps along the way… so start with the little nagging doubts and then move up to the big ones.  You can let go and choose faith.  The result has been life changing – as along the way – I’ve learned a new habit.  It’s almost second nature.  I say – almost as I fall victim to it and have to remind myself not to doubt.

So now, it’s not just during Lent – it’s a daily process.  When doubt or spiritual warfare start crashing in around my spirit – I choose to turn my back on it and focus on the blessings God has in store for me instead.  It’s led to me taking some giant leaps of faith, which I normally wouldn’t have made, and taken me places I never imagined.  I’ll save that for another blog post.

Whats the point of this post you ask?  I encourage you – no – I challenge you to step through the doubt in your life.  Give it up and take a risk with your faith … and just wait to see what God will do.


On a side note – I just saw a post of mine from 2007 that also relates to this.  Go read this!

Coming Home Releasing – August 2014 … AND OTHER NEWS


A lot has happened since I last posted.  For one, I’m going to re-release FINDING KYLIE next month, as my previous publisher and I are finally free from one another.  I won’t get into the details, as I don’t believe in airing grievances in public. So, let’s just say it was less than an ideal situation.  On a positive note - now I get to brush up and release FINDING KYLIE the way I wanted to begin with, with an updated & pleasing cover.

The main reason for posting today is to let you know that

COMING HOME is releasing next month!

For those of you, who have read either FINDING KYLIE or FACING REDEMPTION, you’ll recognize Anne LaSal, the ever supportive best friend.  She finally gets her own story in COMING HOME and introduces you to her sister, Grace.  Grace gets her own story in 2015, with SAVING GRACE (releasing in the spring).

So far the reviews, from my beta readers for COMING HOME have been spectacular. This week Blogcritics Magazine posted this article about COMING HOME, which gave history on both books and led into Anne’s story.  If you skip to the bottom, it reads:

There are times when a story just comes together. When there is that combination of characters, story, and feel that creates that entertaining read. Coming Home is one of those times. It is an engaging read with a storyline that not only will keep you entertained, but the ending has so many twists and turns, it will keep you guessing until the final page. Still, as good as the story is, to me, to me the true test of a book is the characters and how believable they are. Coming Home does not disappoint. I still find myself wanting to go back and read more.

Coming Home is not due out until August 23, 2014, so in the meantime, if you haven’t already, you can always go out and get the author’s previous books Finding Kylie and Facing Redemption.


If you’re in the Oklahoma City area, I’d love to have you at the Book Launch party.  RSVP at the event page, here, Coming Home book launch party.  If you can’t drop by, pick up your own copy on Amazon, Kindle, Nook, or Smashwords.  If there’s another e-book format you’d prefer, drop me a comment to let me know and I’ll start working on it.  


This is my favorite blogger friend’s input on my new book. Check out her review and then go get your own copy!

Originally posted on These are Days:

During my early days of blogging, as I spent every spare moment discovering and reading new blogs, I began to make connections with other writers. I came across so many different personalities back then, learning from others about how they kept their writing momentum going. In the blog world, I found humor and bitterness, personal blogs and fiction. There were so many words out there, some filled with struggle, others always seeming to find something of value and hope in life’s realities. All of the writers I found taught me something about finding my own voice, but one in particular had a positive and lasting influence.

me-and-kim2I don’t remember now exactly how Kimberly McKay and I found each other, but we struck up a friendship that grew strong enough for us to eventually begin communicating outside of our blogs. We messaged one another, talked on the phone, and eventually we…

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Where You’ll Find Me …

For those that stop by from time to time … thank you. For those that are new … welcome.

I’ve not blogged here very often lately, as life has been very busy over the last couple years.  However, I’ve been more consistently writing here at my other blog.

Or if you are a twitter user, you can find me here.

I would still encourage you to stop by here, from time to time.  As I’m contemplating starting it back up, but for now the above links are where you’ll find me.